Day 360, Grace

Listening to: The Strokes radio on Pandora

The last thing I want to do right now is write.
My foot is killing me and needs a podiatrist badly.
I hurt Jenn's feelings last night and today and furthered western culture's stereotype of males by not listening to or understanding her feelings.
I told Quinn I'd help him with his Lego house but I didn't come through.
I'm a fan of Weezer, 80's rap, and have a collection of 65,000 songs, many of which would shock my christian friends. I'd be refused church membership based on my playlists alone.
I slipped down the stairs this morning and used an expletive. The kids heard me.
My car demanded another new tire today and Les Schwab got another 80 bucks from me. I intended to buy a new pair of shoes with that money.
Jenn and I had a "passionate" conversation on the way to the movies with the kids tonight. It was one of those where the kids got quieter as the conversation grew more tense and that's never a good sign because they're able to hear every word we're saying.

But,

I am writing.
My foot is on ice.
The night ended with a 3 mile walk with Jenn. Apologies were made and met with forgiveness and grace. These are our best friends in our relationship. They're on speed dial.
We talked for the whole hour and ten minutes of the walk. Mostly about what this year might hold. What we want it to hold.
I wrestled with Quinn and told him I was sorry for not getting to the Lego house. He cared more that we were wrestling and said it was okay about the Lego house.
I love my music library and I'll remain a Weezer fan. I've even been known to listen to Coldplay on occasion which is a serious threat to my male social capital (if I still have any). Simon and Garfunkel, REM, Vanilla Ice, Run DMC, Beastie Boys, Van Halen, CCR, Al Green, Tom Jones, The Barnaked Ladies, Gungor, Mumford and Sons, Jon Foreman. The list is endless, really.
If I didn't replace the tire on the car, we would likely have had a blow out on the way to the movies.
I'll still buy new shoes and now both me and the car will have new rubber.
I decided it was a good thing that the kids heard our conversation tonight. They argue so much with each other during the day it's probably good for them to hear someone else argue.

Today, I'm reminded of the importance of grace and relativity. Really, I had a great day and that is relative to truly crappy days I've had in the past. There is so much to be thankful for. Each morning I make a list of 20 things I'm thankful for. It's changed the way I view the daily things that happen.

I imagine as long as I own a car, I'll have to buy new tires. And as long as I live in this body, it will increasingly hurt. Jenn and I will have arguments, I'll grow my playlists and I might even find a good pair of shoes to walk through life in. Grace is such a beautiful thing. It can take all of these cold facts and circumstances of our lives and put a warm blanket on them.

I'm going to take whatever life gives me. And I'm going to wrap it all in grace. Forgive any misspellings or grammar mistakes, please.

For now, Wade.